Did some more figure drawings. I’m really happy to be drawing again after so long. It’ll take a while before I’m back to where I was, but I’m getting better every time I draw. ❤️
Did some more figure drawings. I’m really happy to be drawing again after so long. It’ll take a while before I’m back to where I was, but I’m getting better every time I draw. ❤️
I did a draw, for the first time in ages. These are some quick 1 minute poses to help me get back into the swing of drawing regularly. I’m very out of practice, but nothing like some life drawings to help me get back to where I was.
Tumblr flagged a bunch of the figure drawings on my art blog featuring nude models, which I ’d like to remind everyone are still permitted under the new community guidelines.
I appealed them one by one as I scrolled down my art blog, and all of them were restored within minutes. I was actually surprised at how promptly it was handled. All of the posts are now restored, EXCEPT the one where the model is visibly transgender.
Out of the 5 or 6 posts that I appealed, that is the only one they considered to be in violation of the new community guidelines. The drawings were not any more or less explicit than the ones that got restored. Literally the only difference is that these feature a naked woman with a visible penis, rather than a naked woman with a visible vagina, or a naked woman with the penis not visible.
Now that they’ve rejected the appeal on that post, I’m unable to appeal it a second time.
It seems to me like Tumblr considers visibly trans bodies to be inherently pornographic. This just further confirms my belief that Tumblr just doesn’t give a crap about queer people.
I haven’t been able to draw consistently for what feels like several years. Depression has been really, really bad, and it has impacted my ability to create. I really want to get back into it, but it’s hard.
Apart from depression, I’ve noticed there’s also a lot of really bad, even traumatic memories associated with my old work.
Even going back through my old drawings and illustrations just now, as I was reposting things to pillowfort, brought up a lot of really hurtful stuff. From abusive teachers, to toxic friendships. There’s a lot of pain there…
I really do want to get back into drawing. But damn…it’s really hard when there’s so much bad stuff associated with something I used to love doing.
Hi there. My name is Nadia. I’m a neurodiverse transgender woman of color living The Netherlands.
I was assigned male at birth, but for most of my life, especially since I started puberty I’ve been suffering from crippling dysphoria regarding my gender. Along with my ADHD, this led to me developing chronic depression, anxiety and agoraphobia in my late teens and young adulthood. Eventually I couldn’t take it any more and realized that the only way I could ever be truly happy is to transition and start living as my most authentic self.
I’ve lived in this body for 31 years, of which only the last 3 I’ve been on Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT). This, along with things like permanent laser facial hair removal has gone a long way towards helping me look and feel like the woman I know I am. But there’s only so much that hormones can do. It can’t fix the parts of my body that cause me the most dysphoria. Only surgery can change those.
When I first started transition, I didnt want to rush into any surgeries. After all, they’re scary, permanent, invasive and very expensive. I was hoping HRT alone would be enough. But over the past 3 years the pain I feel regarding these specific aspects of my body has been constant and persistent regardless of how much self love I try to practice. It’s not something that’s just going to go away on its own.
Deciding on getting these procedures isn’t a decision I made lightly. It came after years of deliberation and trying everything else I could think of to make this feeling go away.
Over the past 9 months especially, my mental health has gone down the drain. A lot of the time I’m too scared to go outside by myself, because how transphobic society can be to someone like me. My loved ones, family members, and partners have noticed how much worse I’ve gotten. I’ve been feeling hopeless, gross and most of all stuck. Like I’m unable to move forward in any way.
Just like my decision to come out and transition, the decision to get rid of my facial hair using laser hair removal, the decision to go on HRT, having these surgeries really is the best option. It’s the next step I need to take in my transition.
Please consider donating if you’re able to. It would mean the world to me and you’d be helping me out in a big way. If you’re unable to donate please share the link as much as possible.
Thank you. <3
Wow! Thanks to everyone’s generous donations, I’m already 20% of the way there! You’re all incredible, and I’m so thankful for everyone’s support. It’s my hope that people keep sharing this page as much as possible to hopefully keep donations coming in and getting me all the way to my donation goal. Again, thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your kindness and generosity. ❤️❤️❤️
Wooo! 25% of the way there! Thank you so much to everyone who donated and shared my fundraiser.
I’ve decided to extend the fundraiser for a further 45 days. Hopefully people will keep sharing and donating and get me to my goal of €4000. <3
Wow! Thanks so much to everyone who has continued to share and donate. Thanks to some recent donations I’m already at 30% now.
Y'all are lifesavers! I hope we can keep this up and people continue to share and donate. <3
I’m proud to present these illustrations I did last month for a Dutch children’s book. The book is a collection of stories told by mainly immigrant grandparents who live in the southeast part of Amsterdam. The stories are based on scary, exciting or awe-inspiring moments that they’ve experienced in their lives. All the artwork is drawn by young artists and illustrators, many of whom I’m good friends with.
The book was designed to connect generations and encourage the transfer of cultural identity to the younger generation in an interesting and fun way.
Though only a limited number of physical copies have been made, the book is available in e-book form completely free of charge.
While all the stories are in Dutch, they each have beautiful artwork to go along with them, so it’s worth a look even if you don’t speak the language.
I’d also like to give a shout-out to my good friends mangogloory, kell0x and marleyfly, who have all contributed art to this book as well.
If you’re interested in commissioning art from me, please take a look at my commission policy.
